A Place to Shout

2012-01-20T06:19:00.001-08:00

It's time to go back.
I'm ready and I need to.

回家了吗？

2011-12-27T05:02:00.000-08:00

我回家了吗？
常常想念家，每一次回来之前非常兴奋。
但，回来之后，却总觉得格格不入。
怎么了？
不是不爱家，不爱家乡，而是。。。
少了一个迈步向前的空前了。
我在家乡已经没有进步的空间了。
感觉自己总是和朋友的进度不一样。
大家都是大学生。
在英国我是个大学生，在家乡我还是个中学生。
已经没有机会交新朋友了，也没有机会体验这里不同以往的生活了。
对这点，我真的对自己非常失望。
还是，
外国早已经就是我家了。
还是，我目前无家可归，因为心已经乱了？

生日快乐

2011-12-03T15:01:00.000-08:00

一年一度的生日又来了.

我20岁了.

迈向2012年, 我对自己下了非常多的承诺以及期许.

希望我能一一实现.

今年,少了亲友在身边. 虽然你们在远方,但你们的祝福胜过一切.

思念变成动力.

谢谢你们一直在身边.

今年生日少了爱情但多了非常非常多爱与鼓励.

今晚,不买醉. 想一个人度过一个充满自己的生日.

期待在还没21之前,完成一切一切的目标.

最后,再此与自己说声,‘生日快乐。’

缘分。

2011-11-26T13:11:00.000-08:00

感觉这次我会彻底死心了吧？

第一次，恋爱。爱得很深。

失恋的感觉很苦，但是值得的。

很想再一次恋爱，但还是看缘分。

我异性缘一向也不怎么好，所以至少拥有过这么的感觉。

一切的付出都是美好回忆。

从中学会怎么去爱护一个人。

我，期待。。。

坚持.

2011-11-24T12:36:00.000-08:00

这次我不会这么容易放弃.
因为,
我真的很想很想和你在一起.
即使再大的牺牲. 我都能做.
不是不理智.不是不爱脸.
是努力争取我爱的人.

属于

2011-11-02T07:44:00.000-07:00

以为回到‘家’就可以清静。
没想到永远找不到自己的那一个角落。

想静静的思考。
想静静的念书。
想静静的休息。
想永远在清静。

放空

2011-10-28T06:36:00.000-07:00

放空几个小时
爽毙
但,
梦醒后
还是要想,要担心.

once in a blue moon

2011-10-27T10:34:00.000-07:00

偶尔, 你还是会出现在梦中.
今晚,对你的思念特别多.
爱你的我想多看你一眼.
但,距离与分开以把把我们拉得远远的.
你还记得我吗?
今晚的我无法忘记你.

2011-10-19T04:03:00.000-07:00

身在远方的我，
非常非常担心家。
我，
无能为力。

第一时间

2011-10-17T08:02:00.000-07:00

累了不要見外　把我挖起來　吐個痛快
看不慣朋友有難　誰還冷冷的圍觀　我的手心為你握起來
煩了不要見外　把我找出來　陪你負擔
續杯咖啡的溫暖　一直暖到你想開　你心情的坑洞讓我來填滿
昨天會被今天明天來取代　動心的感情不會淘汰　關心常在
就算你我在熱鬧喧嘩中走散　友情會第一時間趕來
讓跳亂的心平躺下來　重新的呼吸簡單　深深的　滿滿的
朋友只要你被孤單壓的叫不出來　我第一時間送出關懷
熱熱的眼神陪你看開　找回那片大自然　圍著你抱緊你相信你
我確定

累了不要見外　把我挖起來　吐個痛快
看不慣朋友有難　誰還冷冷的圍觀　我的手心為你握起來
煩了不要見外　把我找出來　陪你負擔
續杯咖啡的溫暖　一直暖到你想開　你心情的坑洞讓我來填滿
昨天會被今天明天來取代　動心的感情不會淘汰　關心常在
就算你我在熱鬧喧嘩中走散　友情會第一時間趕來
讓跳亂的心平躺下來　重新的呼吸簡單　深深的　滿滿的
朋友只要你被孤單壓的叫不出來　我第一時間送出關懷
熱熱的眼神陪你看開　找回那片大自然　圍著你抱緊你相信你
我確定

（F4,第一时间）

挣扎

2011-10-16T04:58:00.000-07:00

在头脑里与自己吵架非常的苦。

昨晚，与自己挣扎了5个小时，但始终还是没有答案。

与自己吵架比自己打自己来得苦10倍。

痛在身体只不过是伤痕。

不知道痛的位置真的才是痛。

我现在非常的痛。

沮丧,伤心

2011-10-13T04:14:00.000-07:00

怎么办?

这个感觉不是想家的感觉.但是它和想家的感觉非常非常地相似.

这是愤怒,伤心,疲倦,打抱不平,担心家里等等种种感觉搅和在一起.

在这个陌生的环境住了两年了.习惯了一切.生活非常舒服.只有一样永远不能变.我就是不喜欢communicate,所以这么多年了.还是找不到一个诉苦的对象. 固执的我就是这样. 还是我就是习惯了知己所以最美最真实的微笑和自己就留给她们. :)

一个人生活并不难. 伤心,沮丧只是一下下. 擦干眼泪就要坚强的完成我的目标.

今天就是那两小时的课.虚伪的微笑戴在脸上就去上课了吧!

2011-10-10T08:09:00.000-07:00

Thanks for making me smile sincerely.
It means that much after one month.
A taste of sincerity is what I need.

2011-09-02T08:49:00.000-07:00

No time is a good time to say Good-bye.

小喝

2011-08-30T23:25:00.000-07:00

小喝两杯
电话在手中紧握不放
脑海中针扎对与错
最后,
以泪洗脸
哄自己入眠。

遺失的美好

2011-08-25T10:23:00.000-07:00

当我电话不见时,不见的不是电话. 不见的是你我的回忆.

依然,你对我说的每一句话仍然刻骨铭心.

每晚睡前,抱着那一线希望电话简讯的最后一封会是你的名字.

失去你不是你我的错.是上天安排的不妥.

我依然会遵守我的承诺.毕业后,若真的会回国,全都会是因为对你的不舍.

失去的就是过去式.

世界是圆的.若你是我的,我相信我们会再次相见.那一次永远不会分开.

是我的.不管怎么样你就是我的.

A long way to go.

2011-05-30T05:53:00.001-07:00

There is always a fight that you have to fight alone.
I have one right now and I will try my best to win it.
Every minute of the day is a learning process.
I, enjoy and love the process.

On the other hand, I love that one small little thing that I did just touched my friend's heart.
We have gone separate ways when we graduated from high school.
You are still a dear friend of mine and I love doing small little things for us.
Even if we don't keep contact much but we know we have each others' best interests at heart.
I miss you and I want to see you !!!!

30 years later, I hope I can see all of us sitting down at a table like my dad and his friends.
Everybody remembering every small details of their high school life.
It is a small dream of mine which I know we can reach if and only if ...
Anyway, a dream can come true or even it will be a dream it will still be a good dream. :)

Judgemental

2011-05-28T09:43:00.001-07:00

It's my first week back AGAIN.
everybody must be wandering what the hell am I studying right now ?
For your information, EARLY CHILDHOOD STUDIES !!!
YES !!! I'm studying a course that will only lead me to wipe children's ass and get pissed by young children and also yes I'm not using my BRAIN because it is just merely children who do not use their brain !!!
WRONG WRONG WRONG !!!!
If you think that way in the future you are not fit to be a parent because you don't care about your child.
The child's early stage development will effect their future which directly effect yours !!!
So, what is on your mind right now ????
You people must also be wandering why my parents are sending me to England to study such a low pay job !!!!!
You all must be envious with all the support my parents are giving me !!!
I swear with the interest and passion I have towards young children that all children will be happy with me and I'm here to make a change to education.
There is a Chinese saying "行行出状元"
So, just stop with the eyes popping out and also the "o" sounds that make me want to slap you across the face !!!
Don't judge !!! I know I spending tons of money for this, but I will be a happier person than you are right now because I know where I will be in the future ... What about you ????

2011-04-25T12:46:00.000-07:00

說一聲再見，原來需要那麼大的勇氣，
我終於體會，人不是長大了就會變得勇敢，
長大的人不過是吹起來的氣球，不小心一戳就破了.

2011-04-18T07:35:00.001-07:00

说不出的痛苦。

2011-04-10T15:35:00.000-07:00

假期正式开始了。
今天，我。。。回到我英国之旅的第一站 - Bath。
若没回去永远都不知道那个城市对我意义多么重要。
时间过得很快，不知不觉的一年过了。
去年走的地方，今年再次走，但可惜身边的朋友不一样了。遗憾。
走着走着，回忆就像水一样。在脑里一直流出来，似乎在看一部电影。
回忆有苦有甜，但苦的感觉胜过甜。
感觉真难受。
看见以前的室友，感触真多。大家真的要东跑西飞了。这个城市，明年就没有熟悉的人了。
我还会回去吗？我想。因为，Bath 有家的感觉。但，下次就只剩我一人还有回忆的陪伴。
我怕自己承受不了回忆的痛。
家，你让我不知所措！

回到牛津，我不停的比较。
其实，牛津给了我所谓的自由。这里的朋友比Bath的朋友好多了。但，为何我一直都闷闷不乐？
很恨自己这个想法。
在这里，眼泪只能在醉醒后才不停的流出来。感觉真难受。
当我找到自由时，很庞大的责任就跟随在后。这是我没预料的责任。
自己快被责任憋住了。快喘不过气了。
责任的背后还有勇敢，坚强。我做不到了。
我德国朋友也快垮了。今天看到她不仅留下泪。自己眼泪就被逼滚回心里。为了大家需要坚强，这是我这里最重要的一堂课。我快过不了这堂课了。

很少人会了解这个痛。
大多人一到假期，周末就纷纷的回家了。我们少数的却需要留在这儿一个人孤孤单单的过假期。
最痛的不是没有得回家，而是看到那些有家可归的人不珍惜回家的机会。
惜福啊！
家，我想你！！！同时感谢你让我上了我到目前为止最痛苦的一堂课。

毓敏，把眼泪擦干。一定要帮忙和你一样有家没得归的人站起来。好好把假期过下去。

2011-04-09T13:16:00.000-07:00

You never know how much it hurts till it happen.
but,
once, twice, thrice ???
What happened was just pure stupidity.
The after math was merely a punishment.
My sub-conscious is punishing me.
I hate myself for being me.
What happens. happens.
I deserve to be in pain.
Time heals ? Hmm ...
It heals the wound. It makes me grow.
But,
it will never erase the mental affect that I had upon myself.

2011-04-04T18:54:00.001-07:00

生在福中不知福的你，不知道什么叫寂寞，孤单。
不管生活多么不同，我依然寂寞，孤单。
我习惯，但也讨厌这么一个这样的生活。
但，这是我唯一的选择所以我服。

It has been a while ....

2011-03-19T06:36:00.000-07:00

... since I came up here.
Why ? I'm not even sure.
A busy schedule, friends, commitment, assignments etc.
Life just becomes a routine.
Classes just become a place to sit and spend time.
Friends are there so you can exercise your mouth.
Nothing seems to make a difference anymore.
It was how I feel for the past 2 weeks.

One day, in class I just start thinking more about an article that was given to me.
Then, I started to write out my thoughts and views about Education.
I wrote it and just felt that nobody would understand the thoughts and views because it was too extreme.
I guess the views and thoughts will be in my book for the time-being till it starts to make sense and one day maybe one day I will have the courage to express my view to people who understands Education.

I know I haven't chosen the wrong degree. This is the road I will go, a nursery or maybe even into writing. It's the future. Who knows ? Something I know for sure is that I want to make a difference for Malaysia's Education. I want to help raise the children into better and wiser people than who we are today. That I know. Definitely.

生日愿望

2010-11-17T09:55:00.000-08:00

我的生日也快到了，完全不期待．
我就一直跟我朋友们说大家一起喝醉酒算了．
这样也不必想太多，醉了，人也比较轻松．
但，我知道醉了，我一定会痛哭．
不想痛哭，也不想用理智面对心理上的问题．
现在的我，一直都在躲避，不想面对也不想发脾气．
没有人在身边真的很孤单．
我．．．都告诉大家我过得很好，但很好也不怎么好．
最近，体弱多病，天气转冷了．
我就是很想要回家，没别的了．
我生日愿望就是回家．
想家想得快哭了．
但我永远不会允许自己哭．
一定要坚强．．．．．

.....

2010-10-11T02:14:00.000-07:00

Missing freshers week.

The consequence is that I can't fit into the picture

It also means I will be friendless till next year.

Yipee !!!!

Happy to know I'm going to be LONELY for the next 2-3 months.

The only thing to look forward is going home.

But,

Is going back the right choice ?

Hmmm

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心里的痛.

2010-10-05T08:27:00.000-07:00

来了少过一个星期而已.

但,心中的麻醉药好像逐渐消失了.

我常常告诉我的知己,"眼泪是珍贵的,别轻易掉眼泪."

瞬间,我真的想掉眼泪.

我可以掉眼泪吗?还是,我要再次在心里打麻醉药.

环境改变了我待事的方法.

它让我坚强.但同时我也变成冷漠.

我非常想念他!

但,我们之间是被我破坏的.没有得怨他人,只有埋怨自己.

我非常想念知己!

我知道他们也想我,但...我们必须习惯距离!

我非常想念父母!

我知道自己现在在这里,最大的目的是他们!

适应期?难道我真的需要它吗?

我渴望回来英国非常久了,但这次的归来真的不是想象的容易.

再次的归来

2010-10-03T09:24:00.000-07:00

终于回到英国了。

这次经验一定不同。

我一定不会再次被朋友利用和伤害。

我一定努力读书，考上更加好的大学读个博士。

我记得我的目标，记得我的承诺。

新的开始，目标永不变。

我一定要做个成功的老师。

Selfish thought

2010-08-16T07:36:00.000-07:00

It has been around a month since I came back to Penang
Once I came back to Penang,
life is always about you she him them and never ME !
I wish I could do something for myself, yea ... it's a selfish thought
but ...
I was hoping this trip back was more of myself then you people out there
but ... I guess I'm wrong
No matter how much I had change, I will still have to be the E-Maine who does not say NO ey.
Even if you were the one who make up the whole thing but I'm still to blame for whatsoever had happen right ?
Even when I was just merely giving some suggestion in the end I have to swollow the whole project down my throat right ?
Even when I say I would like to stay home and relax, I still have to go out right ?
Being home feels like satisfying others instead of myself
I just have to learn to adapt to being like that in UK, and being another that in M'sia.
It's going to be hard, but I just have to make it.
I really need to open out more instead of scolding inside and making myself tired ...
I hate lying and I hate suprises
I don't wanna make anymore suprises anymore
So damn SICK of it already !!!!

Journey

2010-07-10T02:55:00.001-07:00

Royal Crescent.

This 7 months, has been a journey.

I'm not feeling

-sad

-worried

nor,

-happy.

Everything seems neutral.

It was not perfect though.

I wish I settled the friend problem better,

I wish I could leave Bath without any regrets.

too bad,

it can't be amended.

When it come to relationship with the opposite sex,

hmm ...

maybe I really should talk to some love expert or something.

I made a big mess out of it, or else ... who knows ...

I might be feeling blissful now.

Well, leaving for London in another 4 hours time.

Bath,

will I miss you ?

that will be an answer I won't get till tomorrow. :D

大学

2010-07-07T12:09:00.000-07:00

房东说我选择的大学错了，我应该选。。。牛津大学！！！

我哪里可能能去牛津大学？

大家真的太看得起我了。

如果我真的有这样的实力，

我也不想去哪儿！

因为，我志气真的不高，

对自己的要求也真的不高。

所以，我只能去牛津新大学，不是历史中的牛津大学

结婚II

2010-06-30T00:07:00.000-07:00

续上个星期的post,没想到黑人朋友又问我同样的问题

我说不因为家里说不定有个男性朋友也在等我

他说男性朋友就是还没肯定，所以又问我一样的问题

这次，我说有可能

黑人好友显出了快乐的表情

黑人朋友又问，“在这世上你就是不要遗憾，对吧”

我也二话不说的赞同了，因为。。。我真的不想有遗憾。

黑人朋友最后一个问题是，“那你在等什么？”

我说，“为什么你的朋友都不出面自己问呢？”

= to be continue =

这，让我想。。。我真的很不会处理自己感情的事情。

事情都搞得一塌糊涂。

我。。。

好不适合交往哦！！！

结婚

2010-06-23T01:11:00.001-07:00

一位黑人朋友问我，“你要嫁给我好友吗？”

我开玩笑说，“我。。。不认识你好友，至少也要给个名字吧？”

黑人朋友就打眼色看坐他旁边的黑人好友。

黑人好友默默做作业，一声不响。

我

也一声不响地回座位不回答他问题。

哈哈！！！

这件事给我个很大的启发。

我相信我会解决脑海中的问题了。

身体非骗钱之物

2010-06-22T00:54:00.000-07:00

你

为了钱

可以...

出卖尊严!!!

出卖身体!!!

出卖朋友!!!

真好!!!

谢谢你侮辱我人格

让我之前的痛苦,变成你现在的噩梦.

你说我爱献我英文,

姐姐...

我们在英国啊!!!!不讲英文,该讲什么好??

臭你妈的!!!

我知道我这个人很直率...但...我从没讲过你和其他男人睡.

至今,我就要大声呐喊你的真面目!!!

你不只和一个男人睡,还是和3-4个男人睡!!!

你是为了钱和那些凯子睡的!!!

为了一些名牌 ...出卖你在家乡的男朋友!!!

我办事的态度，你可以不喜欢

你不喜欢的原因很简单就是

因为我们...

看待世事的观念太不一样了。

现在,我珍重的告诉你...

我鄙视你!!!

你这只香港鸡!!!

知道但迷糊

2010-06-16T00:15:00.000-07:00

终于...挨过了6个月的时间.

但...

烦恼,压力,悲伤 ... 总是在最后关头发生

心里是又很多'如果'

如果我在国内,是好好念书... 现在 ... ???

如果来了这里后,没学会喝酒... 现在 ... ???

如果我没有搬来这新家 ... 现在 ... ???

如果我那一次没生重病 ... 现在 ... ???

我知道自己刚刚来英国报到时，是开心的。

知道自己是会很珍惜这个经验。

我知道自己现在在英国是郁闷，伤心，渐渐也消瘦了。

知道自己已经累垮了。

我知道自己在这里只有短短一个月的时间，

知道又如何？我能不能渡过难关还是未知数。

2010-05-18T00:37:00.000-07:00

终于了解什么是考试压力！！！
很可笑吧！高中考政府考试都没试过这么压力！！！
也了解了，什么是有心无力！！！
背痛得坐也不是，躺也不是。
他奶奶的！！！唉~
只能希望会在考试之前康复吧！
但希望好像有点渺小！

2010-05-11T10:16:00.000-07:00

为什么我在很多事对自己非常有信心,但惟有爱情我一直都在质问自己.

好烦哦!

2010-05-03T04:45:00.000-07:00

心软了,但是至少心情比较轻松.

你!真的是心中不可没有的人!

给你的话

2010-04-24T06:14:00.000-07:00

为什么？？？？
为什么要传简讯过来？？？
不是约定我回国后再联络吗？？？
你的简讯，把我打回原形。
我不想想爱情的问题，我只要好好念书。
别传了，我会心软的。
我们俩可不可以4个月不联络吗？
我答应你，我回国后一定联络你。

2010-04-18T00:33:00.000-07:00

我放手了。
对你，应该有个了断了。
爱情，对我而言还是一个遥远的梦。
是我的错，是我辜负你。
对不起！

2010-04-07T03:11:00.000-07:00

I have been in the United Kingdom for 4 months already.
I have to admit time flies, in 3-4 months time I will be back home.
For the past few months, too many things had happen back home.
Things worth celebrating
Things which we don't want to happen
Everything had happened already, but I'm not home.
A mixture of feelings are all I have right now.
The dream to be home will never happen
Whenever something arise, I really hope I could be beside my parents.
I want to go home and hug them and tell them I really miss them.
Ocassional tears still flow out of my eyes.
Home ... just seems so far away right now.

2010-04-06T02:30:00.000-07:00

WHERE IS HOME RIGHT NOW ???

THERE IS NO HOME IN UK

EVERYTHING IS JUST RENT OR BORROWED

NOTHING BELONGS TO ME

I WANT SOMETHING THAT I'M FAMILIAR WITH

I WANT SOMETHING THAT IS TRUE

I WANT

H O M E ! ! !

4-W

2010-03-06T07:37:00.000-08:00

What do I know about relationships ?

Where will I be when people start to learn to love and be love ?

Who am I to judge people who dates for a reason other than love ?

Why should I care about the consequence when it does not concern me ?

That's the 4-W in life.

初五的约定

2010-02-19T07:49:00.000-08:00

I wasn't there ...
It was one of those events that I will forever regret not being able to attend.
Before we graduate from high school, all of us signed on a piece of paper promising that we will always meet on the fifth day of CNY.
I guess the paper will be recycled by now, but the promise is still in our heart.

Denise and I were at Sze Ming's place during the transform from year 2009 to 2010.
At last it turn out to be that both of us were not there for the Chinese New Year.
It is all fate ...

It was indeed a shitty day when I have to take a test and walk home alone in the rain when it was suppose to be a day for laughter and fun.

2010-02-12T07:37:00.001-08:00

Freedom = Lonliness

So What ?

2010-02-08T03:24:00.000-08:00

If I have got the freedom I have right now !?!?!
Having what I desire for the past 2 years does not work
when Lonliness is all over me

Home is not home
Landlady will forever be that lady who will calculate everything with you

I can't bring myself to call my coursemate FRIENDS
I wish I can drink till I get drunk every Saturday night so I can beat myself to sleep in order not to miss Penang.

Whatever freedom I have right now does not suit me when the right people aren't with me.
The only thing that is making me going is my promise to my loved one back in Penang.

Daddy's Birthday

2010-01-23T10:05:00.000-08:00

Exactly 1 year ago, my FoosSs celebrated my dad's birthday with me and my family members.
Now, not only can't I meet my FoosSs I can't celebrate my dad's birthday with him in person.
Sigh ~
I know I'm going to miss home alot on this particular day.

Empitiness

2010-01-23T02:16:00.000-08:00

I can't belive how time flies and I will be in UK for 3 weeks on the coming Tuesday.
It wasn't that hard to adapt to the place and weather on the condition that I don't think about home.
Bath Academy is alot better compared to Disted College.
Home in UK will never be like home in Penang.
I learn to apreciate my PDW 2989 when I start walking for 20 mins to and back from the academy.
Friends will never be friends forever here.
The eyes will feel watery when a video call is started among friends and family.

Thats life here & it sucks in its on special way but everything above will just have to fit in somehow.

Cha Yung Yiing

2010-01-07T23:53:00.000-08:00

Eventhough I'm in UK already but still I feel I need to complete a task that I promised to do back home in Penang. The task is to blog about the best of friends I have back in Penang.

As promise to this particular girl back home, I will talk about Yung Yiing today. She is the one and only best friend I have that is younger than me. Eventhough it is just a mere 6 days, but still at least she is the xiao mei mei in our small little family. If you don't know her well, you will think that she is very serious and is the type of girl who can't smile. BUT. all these are just illusions of the first impression. Once you get to know her better, you will realize that she always put a smile on her tired little face and will prank and trick people once in a while.

She is the type of girl who would think twice before doing something. Once during high school both of us did not think twice and went to One-Stop popular after school to buy some equipment for the farewell we are organising. While purchasing the stuff, we met my mum and aunt and they advise us not to 'lepak' though we ain't doing that. On the way back to school, she started to worry about her parents knowing about her walking out of school without premission. Well, she is the type of girl who will consider and think alot alot alot and alot before making a decission.

YY, you are the only FOO member that I did not meet before I came to this freaking cold country. Eventhough we did not meet but the call I made to you yesturday make up alot for not seeing you. A long and lonely journey back home was made perfect, when we talked. Anyway, I'm sure the next meeting for us would be online. Don't choose your tv show over me k. =D

First Post

2010-01-05T15:49:00.000-08:00

Technically it is not my first post, but it is still my first post as i start my stay in UK.

The flight isn't up to my liking. The food weren't nice, the journey was shaky that cause me not to be able to have my rest. =(
Those 14 hours are the worst part of my UK life as yet.
The line at immigration was freaking long and my backpack was getting heavier as time pass.
The officer was so sacrastic and he smirk as he saw my passport picture.
When we were done with Health Control and Desk 1, another officer came up to us to get some survey done.
It took us some time again to find our lugage. =S
First impression on London after so many years is COLD !!!
Got onto the van to go to Bath.
Saw the first snow of my entire life.
Slept throughout the journey.
Went through a small road that freak us out. XD
Was the last to reach the homeprovider's home.
My first dinner was Shepherd Pie. It tastes not bad. =P
Host provider's cat likes to clean up on my jeans. =(
Listen to the news with host provider whose name is Gay.
Started to unpack but decided to give up halfway but room is still neat and tidy. =D
Took my first bath in UK, eventhough you will think im crazy but the bath was wonderful. =D
Saw my first snow in Bath
and now my first post in Bath.
Tomorrow is first day of school so ... morning to you ppl and night to myself =)

Misunderstanding

2009-12-19T07:40:00.000-08:00

Miscommunication leads to misunderstanding.
There are only 2 ways things would turn out to be.
1. If the misunderstading is left to be, things would never turn better and friends could lost each other.
2. If the misunderstanding is put on the table to be talked about, things could get better and the friendship would be stronger than before.

Thank God, my friends choose the 2nd option in order to make today have a beautiful ending. =)

Denise Zhang

2009-12-19T06:59:00.000-08:00

Since I was bug to continue the posts about my best friends but I don't know who to choose to write about. I feel I should talk about those who wasn't feeling jealous. So, it was decided Denise Zhang will be the 2nd one to appear in my blog. =)

What about Denise that make our friendship sooo special? I guess that she is my pranking partner in tricking Li Xiang and the others. Due to the fact that the others are afraid of lizard and both of us aren't. We would always trick them a lizard is behind them or on the floor. The statement would always cause them to jump and down trying to look for the lizards. There are times when there were real lizards on the floor but they choose not to belive. It causes the others to scream louder. I remembered once when we threw a toy lizard around the prefect room that cause many prefects to scream and to jump out of their chair. This cause us to be told off by our dicipline teacher, but all was worthy.

This year when we start to part ways, she is the first among nine of us to leave Penang to further her studies. Eventhough she only went to Taylors College but we really did contact lesser than expected. Yet, whenever there was a gathering both of us would try to suprise the others by telling them that she would not attend. Until today that I realize that this suprise isn't going to work anymore so we both better start thinking of other plan to suprise the others.

Out of all members of Foo, we talked less over the year. Yet, there is a feeling that our friendship never seems to be strained. In the future, I hope you will tell us when you're in a spot of trouble, I know our presence or ackowledgement may not help much, but I always belive that the presence and support of a friend would make a difference.

Anyway, my future doctor I wish you the best in your challenge to become a Cardiologist and I will miss you as my partner in crime. =D

Blue Reef & Teluk Bahang

2009-12-18T22:38:00.000-08:00

I had lunch with my college friends at blue reef yesturday
YS, Jewel, Kylie, Sofia, Nicole, May, Bob and Darly were there
It was sort of my farewell party with the college friends. Wander if I could meet them after yesturday?
Anyway we had lunch and talk and gossip and .... with each other. It was kinda the normal lunch hours during the college days.(seems like it was years ago eventhough SAM just ended)
Anyway after lunch Sofia, Nicole. Daryl, Bob and May left to attend to their stuff.
YS, Jewel, Kylie and I were the only one left and we were wandering what to do. So we decided to go makan angin in Kylie's car. We just talk on the car and we went up all the way to Batu Ferringhi to see hotels. In the end. we went to Jason house and kacau him instead. His dogs are so damn huge !!! And only did we realize he just woke up from his nap, I guess. After that we went to Uplands as we were curious about the builiding and only did we realize it was HUGE !!!! hahaha ~ After that, we went all the way up to Teluk Bahang. On the way we were already talking about rounding Penang Island but with limited time it could only be in our conversation. Anyway, our last stop before going back home was Teluk Bahang Dam. The view was quite beatiful as it was misty. Kylie and I went down to take some pic first then we took some for Jewel and YS. After that we took a few funny pics which cause some drivers passing by to stare at us. =)

It was great meeting my college friends. Eventhough I didn't get to see Adelene and Florence but still it was memorable and I hope I can meet them once more before I leave for UK.

Piss

2009-12-17T06:08:00.000-08:00

So pissed off right now
I was thinking I'm the one leaving for UK to study yet I have to arrange my own Farewell with my best friends
WTF ... I just can't belive that it can be that hard to help me organise something .One of them promised to help me to organise but at last she didn't. Eventhough I know she has some reasons that cause her to break her promise but still I'm sooo freaking piss off right now cause everybody has to give all sort of excuse to come late or not t0 come or whatever.
If it is just that hard to attend don't come and I don't even give a damn right now.
Just tell me you guys are freaking busy and FINE we don't need to meet for my so call Farewell
I will just come and go as I wish
and don't blame me when I don't inform you

Ong Sze Ming

2009-12-02T07:27:00.000-08:00

Since I'm going to leave for UK soon, I thought I might as well blog about the people I care in Penang.

First of all this person is my sixth sister in my 'family' and her nickname is Toilet Foo.=) She is Ong Sze Ming.

For this whole year, we have not been able to meet each other alot since she is studying in KL while I'm in Penang. Since both of us are the Tanjung Bungah residence, we will always make an effort to meet each other for movie and dinner.

Our traditional movie date whould be buying spagheeti from Pasta Mania and then smuggling the food into the cinema. We would gossip about the actors and actress while eating and laugh without giving a damn about the people who sit around us. After that we would walk blindly around Gurney until we get hungry and we will sit down for lunch. The most important thing is that whenever we meet each other my parking ticket fee was never below RM5. XD

Sze Ming is one of those friends that I respesct the most. She would give me the most construtive and objective advices whenever I need some. Eventhough respectable, she is always one of my target for praticing my bullying. Her reaction to my tactics are always different and adorable. This is one of those thoughts that will always put a smile on my face.

SM, you are one of those friend that seldom go online. I hope that you will go online once in a while to talk to me and advice me whenever I need you. You are the one of a kind friend that is hard to find. Serious yet adorable, hardworking yet lazy. This is you and that makes you so much special in my life.

2009-11-29T04:59:00.000-08:00

I know I should not be angry and disappointed
It is neither theirs nor my fault
but somehow, these two feelings combine together when I know things are not working out the way I want it to
I have only 1 more month here and yet ... things aren't working out the way it suppose to be
I wish I could tell them that I'm not happy but it is not going to help dissolve my frustration cause the decission is made already

Hmm ... I wander whats the feeling of leaving a place like home ?

情与义

2009-11-08T08:25:00.000-08:00

现在的生活里
我认为...
我还没有心理准备开始一段情
我与他的关系虽然还未有任何进展,但是彼此知道心里已经有对方了.
前天,我和他有点吵架
虽然他道歉了,但是我仍然不能接受他那样的对待我
当有了情,对方的优点和缺点不是都应该接受吗?
有可能我真的还未成熟开始这段情
对不起...
我真的不想伤害他

现在的生活里
我知道...
我随时都会在想着我死党
我们聚少离多,但是感情依然没变
反而我们越来越珍惜彼此的存在
即使是有5分钟聊天,我们都会好好利用这时间来鼓励彼此
每一个5分钟慢慢地加起来,变成了我快乐的回忆
这些回忆让我不孤单
谢谢你们...
无时无刻地陪着我

对与错

2009-11-06T23:24:00.000-08:00

我真的不知道现在我是对是错
是不是一个人认错事情才能够解决
但是...
我真的很烦...
没心情做任何事了

朋友

2009-10-28T06:33:00.000-07:00

原来我没办法过没有朋友的日子
现在的生活好孤单寂寞
天天一个人到学院念书
生活很无趣
原来我不管开心还是伤心
都想要和朋友们分享
天天睡醒都想见到我的知己
但是
大家已经各往自己的未来前进了
不可能再天天见面天天聊天了
我真的好怀念
聚会...
也比不上在学校一起上学的时光
最怀念与雯一起在班里谈心事的时候
也怀念在食堂一起高谈阔论的时候
还有在学长室一起工作的时候
从没想过...
这些点点滴滴已经是过去式了
也变成了回忆
唯有后悔当初没好好珍惜那些日子

现在真的好没心情念书

纯粹发泄

2009-10-27T05:45:00.000-07:00

你已经整整一天没联络我了

没你的消息感觉好怪哦

我在电话和电脑前的等待白费了

算了

没联络也罢

Last Week

2009-10-23T05:39:00.000-07:00

Monday
- Stayed back in college with Florence to watch Imagine That on her laptop till 5.30

Tuesday
- Skip last class of Economics to study at home
- Account was cancel last minute.
- Skip ESL to go Gurney Plaza with Jerina, Junie, Jocelyn, Warren and Florence.

Wednesday
- Took class photo for ESL.
- Had my last class with Reb.
- Watched 1/4 of Ugly Truth in ESL.
- Went Gurney with Reb
- Got kinda 'high' when talking with Stella and Reb.
- Slept through last class of Legal Studies.

Thursday
- Skip Maths to find Florence and the gang to take pics in their classroom
- Settle some personal stuff with Ms. Lucy.
- Went to Harvest Inn with Florence and met Jocelyn, Junie, Aemy, Warren and David there.
- Took several pictures with Jocelyn, Junie, Aemy, Warren and David after Accounts.
- Went Gurney with Florence.

Friday
- Skip last class of Maths to study at home.
- Had last class of Accounts skype-ing with Florence's friend, taking photos & giving Mrs Allen her present.
- Took pictures at the library with Darly, Florence, Nicole, Jewel, Bob, May, Adelene,Kylie & Bernard.
- Went to OFA with those above except Florence. We talked till the waiter told us to be quiet
cause there are customers who are complaining.
- Told them a secret which they supported me in. =)
- Talk to Bernard about some friend's problem which bothered me.
- Went to do some stuff with Kylie & Bernard.
- Went to Dr Aw's March intake class to chat and play.
- Ended the day having the last class in SAM which is Dr Aw's class

In conclusion, SAM was worthy. Eventhough I learned not really alot of things academically but I learned alot of things that make me grow up and for sure will benifit me in the future.
I know I will miss all these when I grow old and look back into the past.

Thanks SAM 2009. All of US ROCK !!! =D

Shelter

2009-10-21T05:17:00.000-07:00

The best place I can avoid my problem
1. Alila Home (my house)
2. Montessori Nursery Center ( my mum's kindergarten)
3. Penang Chinese Girls' High School ( there is where my foosSs are )

Thank God for all these places. It is always great to know that there is a place for me to hide whenever I'm down or moody. =)

Today, place no.2 works well for my swinging mood. =D

What a Year

2009-10-21T05:11:00.000-07:00

There will be some things that I want to remember from Disted College
They will be miss

There are so many things that I want to forget from Disted College
They won't be miss

I'm enjoying the last week by hanging out with the best I found in Disted
I can't belive the number of classes that I skip in order to enjoy the best

It was indeed a memorable year
It was a year I grow up into a better person
It was a year that I know what my future will be

2009-10-16T06:18:00.000-07:00

Now, I understand why LOVE could be so complicated
I don't even know how to choose

2009-10-16T05:33:00.000-07:00

There is one question that I should ask myself

Whether to continue or not?

Decide before it becomes late

THINK !!!

Happiness

2009-10-14T04:48:00.001-07:00

Happiness don't fail on me

The mood is 100% right

The feeling is correct

Don't give up on me

I need what I have now

BITCH

2009-10-12T04:52:00.000-07:00

I got what I wanted a long time ago
It wasn't love but friendship
No matter what
I did not lost
You're the one who lost
You think you won when you got my so-called friends
but they are sooo using you BITCH !!!
Laugh all you want now, but at the end of the day I'm so the winner
You will never the understand the true meaning of friends
because you were never one to anybody you know
Calling yourself BITCH was the smartest thing you done since I know you

Two Roads

2009-10-09T06:50:00.001-07:00

To hold on to the one you love
To let go once you know it could not happen ?

Some would say holding on doesn't hurt as much as letting go
Some would say letting go will lead you into a new and more intresting life

but could this mean stubornness and stupidity ?
but could this mean your love isn't as deep as you think it is ?

Why hold on when it is impossible ?
Why let go when one day he maybe touch by your determinaton ?

Two choices
Two entirely diffrent conclusion
Which would you choose ?

To Hold On or To Let Go

Wanders

2009-10-08T03:27:00.001-07:00

Why does everyone has that kinda feeling ?
Why don't I have that feeling that I have last year ?
1 year ...
Will I miss whatever happen to me this whole year ?
I wander ...
Did I really regret this choice in life ?
Did I regret meeting these people ?
Sigh
I guess I won't know till it is all really over
Somehow, this choice in life made me a stronger person
Somehow, I did found a few friends who I can gossip and laugh about with
but never someone whose shoulder I could cry on

Whatever happened it is just part of growing up =)

Re-open

2009-10-07T01:51:00.001-07:00

When one door closes, the other door will open
Eventhough the door between us were never open but it broke my heart really badly
Hopefully, the new you will not hurt me as badly as before
*finger cross*

Why ?

2009-09-28T07:46:00.000-07:00

Why change sides all the time ?

when you know ...

the target can't be reach at the end

Why think so much ?

when you know ...

for sure it will not be a happy ending

離開我

2009-09-26T02:08:00.000-07:00

我把你的電話　從手機裡消除了

我把你的消息　從話題裡減少了

我把你的味道　用香水噴掉了

我把你的照片　用全家福擋住了

你讓我的懂事　變成一種幼稚

你讓我的驕傲　覺得很無知

你讓我的朋友　關心我的生活

你讓我的軟弱　陪伴你的自由

離開我　你會不會好一點

離開你　什麼事都難一點

車來了　坐上你的明天

車走了　我還站在路邊

離開我　你會不會好一點

離開你　什麼事都難一點

風來了　雲就會少一點

你走了　我住在雨裡面

Contribution from the past

2009-09-25T07:26:00.000-07:00

Meeting teachers and friends who were there for me in high school makes me happy

They taught and help me unconditionally

Never understand why people say they don't miss those time

Or maybe, they just won't be able to see what I see

The best of everything already happened then

Nothing will beat those time

The passer-by

2009-09-23T05:35:00.000-07:00

A secret became a joke
A friend became a passer-by
What come will go
That is suppose to be the reality

Somehow,
Some jokes turn into support
Some friends became the special one
What come will never go
It was not a reality till today

You know who you are
You know how much I apreciate you
You know how much I miss you
and
You know how much I love you

Even if we meet for an hour
the one hour will make my day bright instead of gloomy

I will always thank God for your presence in my life

'Great Day'

2009-09-23T05:02:00.001-07:00

If there is another day like today

I would rather commit suicide

SERIOUSLY

I need ...

2009-09-21T23:54:00.000-07:00

I need to study

I need to do my assignments

I need to stop thinking of you

I need to choose my degree courses

I need to start applying for universities

I think i just need to have a BREAK from everything above.

All Grown Up

2009-09-21T07:04:00.001-07:00

When we first met each other we were just new innocent prefects with so much conflict and arguement between us

Yet, as times passes by
We started to understand each other and accept each others fault
The understanding and tolerance among us have bought our friendship so much closer
Going separate ways seems to be the hardest thing to accept when we graduated

I once thought our friendship could not withstand the distance
and,
I know I was wrong today

Nothing can stop us from being BFF
We have overcome so much barriers to reach today friendship

A friendship of 6 years is neither long nor short
but when we accumlate the 6 years of memories
No matter memories of small arguement or even the supports we gave each other
It becomes our own special story

Growing up from innocent brats to mature women tends to make the story the most special of all

FoosSs

你

2009-09-19T08:39:00.000-07:00

你的存在曾让我开心过

这些美好回忆为何只有短短的几个月

为何你要变成另一个陌生人

对我。。。

难道只是利用？

但你是否知道我对你的关心是真诚的

对你的感觉也是真心的

只可惜这一切只是假想

你我现在连朋友都不如

更何况是。。。

我想你知道

我恨我爱你

2009-09-11T06:03:00.000-07:00

So much for a happy ending

Happy Birthday

2009-09-09T08:21:00.000-07:00

Pang Foo,
Happy Birthday !!!
Wandering whether you will read this post
BUT
May all your dreams come true !!! =)
Love ya ~

Nobody

2009-09-07T01:13:00.000-07:00

L asked M," what is your strength?"
M answered,"Nothing."
Therefore, M will never be succesful because she does not has any strenght, but deep down in her heart there was once a strenght but it already become a weakness because of an illness.
From a somebody to a nobody is just how M's future going to become.

Once upon a time

2009-08-22T19:48:00.000-07:00

Once a perfect picture
It scattered as time pass by
We made an effort to glu it together
But it will never be like before anymore
Because each pieces is at different places
So, the picture will never be ONE anymore
It won't be perfect forever

drama

2009-08-19T06:44:00.000-07:00

Drama
It's just part of the learning process

Bye

2009-08-02T06:04:00.000-07:00

Today is the day for
GOODBYES !!!
=(
I already miss you guys !!!

2009-07-27T09:14:00.001-07:00

少一句废话，多一句感动人心的话，
这世界会少很多纷争

Tagged

2009-07-26T22:36:00.000-07:00

遊戲規則：
1、被點名的人在我空間將這篇文章轉載到自己空間中，然後在編輯，刪去我的答案，要在自己的Q空間裡寫下自己的答案，然後傳給其他人，列出個需要回答問題的人的名字，通知對方被點名了，被點名者不得拒絕回答問題，完成遊戲的人將會永遠得到大家的祝福。
2 、這個人要在自己的Q空間裡註明是從哪裡接到問題的，並且再想一個題目傳給其他個人，讓幸福的遊戲繼續下去。
3 、不能回傳，否則犯規！
4 、被點到名字的人將得到大家的祝福，並且所有的美麗願望都會在不久後實現。
5、請點10個朋友,不准不點，點完後請通知那10個老朋友他們被點！

被点者：
1.Yue Pei

2.Yanyii

3.Foo Family

4.Vikki

5.Yi Ern

6.Sofia

7.Jia Ying

8.Bee

9.Florence

10.Li Xiang

★.PART ONE
Q01、你的大名？
★ E-Maine

Q02、你認為什麼才算是真正幸福？
★ lead a happy and healthy life

Q03、你們覺得友情重要還是愛情重要，為什麼？
★ 朋友！ because true friends will be there for me forever

Q04、你相信天長地久嗎？
★ not sure

Q06、你現在過得快樂麼？
★ not bad

Q07、如果有秘密，你真的會做到坦白的告訴對方嗎？
★ yea

Q08、喜歡小Baby嗎？
★ love them

Q09、覺得友情是永遠的麼？
★ with only true friends

Q10、希望自己多大結婚？
★ when i meet the right person any age is ok

Q11、你會為他做自己從來不會做的事情？
★ yes

Q12、你覺得女生捲髮好還是直發好？
★ straight

Q13、最想去哪裡旅遊？
★ a place with beautiful scenery

Q14、一輩子都不會忘記的事？
★ moments with my family members and best friends

Q15、如果愛一個人，是不是要拼命挽回他？
★ it depends on whether the person is worthy or not

Q16、看到天空你想起的第一個人是誰？
★ FoosSs

Q17、你會愛他一輩子麼？
★ Nope

Q18、喜歡你的人和你喜歡的人，你會選哪個？
★ The person who loved me

Q19、你會以何種方式表現你對他（她）的愛？
★ looking at him from the distance

Q20、如果看到自己最愛的人熟睡在你面前你會做什麼？抱著他？
★ i think i will just sleep next to him

Q21、如果你想痛扁一個人，你希望那個人是？
★ too many

Q22、你會後悔過自己的決定嗎？
★ there are times when i regret my decisions

Q23、現在最迷什麼？
★ musics

Q24、你是好孩子嗎？
★ most of the time

Q25、覺得愛情和麵包哪個重要？
★ bread

Q26、如果你失戀了你會怎麼樣？
★ be brave and face the facts asap

Q27、如果你的BF（GF）經常不回家的話，你會怎樣？
★ I won't stay with him before we get married

Q28、现在给你勇气，你最想做些什么事？
★ tell him that I'm going to forget him

★.PART TWO
01、是誰傳給你這份問卷的?
★ pei

02、你們認識多久呢？
★ since primary

03、TA對你來說重要嗎？
★ very important

04、你與TA的關係是？
★ best friends

05、請問TA的興趣是？
★ pigs ? xD

06、你覺得TA的個性如何？
★ emotional person

07、TA在你心目中是幾分？
★ 99

08、睡覺前第一件事？開風扇？喝水？
★ recall the details that happen in my life

09、你的偶像？
★ none

10、你喜歡的季節？
★ spring

11、你打工麼？
★ nope

12、打工次數？
★ 0

13、你想去的國家？
★ European Country

14、你討厭什麼樣的個性？
★ fakers

15、你會抽煙麼？
★ depends

16、你會喝酒麼？
★ depends

17、你常哭麼？
★ nope

18、你常笑麼？
★ nope

19、你喜歡去哪玩？
★ as long as being with right person. anywhere will be ok

20、去玩時喜歡自己一個人去麼？
★ yea

21、是假日時你都睡到幾點？
★ 9 or 10

22、今天的天氣是？
★ funny weather today

53、你們知道最遠的距離是什麽嗎？
★ the distance between the person alive and dead

★.PART THREE
54、我的BGM好听么？
★ 什么是BGM?

55、你的皮包里有什么说说吧
★ picture of my best friends =D

56、你生命中最重要的人是？
★ my family members and foosSS

57、啥东西是你喜欢吃的呀？
★ nth

58、现在有喜欢的人吗？
★ yea

59、你還喜歡他(她)嗎?
★ trying to forget him

60、你觉得我坏吗？
★ nope

Us together Again

2009-07-23T02:33:00.001-07:00

FoosSs

A promise made a year ago
The same people
the same place
but a later TIME

48 hours is just too hard to wait =DDDD

1到10=我和你

2009-07-09T07:14:00.001-07:00

一段情兩顆心三個字是我愛你
無聊時就溜出去期待每天在一起
巴不得粘著你就這樣的不分離
十全十美的愛情從一到十等於我和你

Kindy Pics

2009-07-06T05:56:00.001-07:00

'Class Photo'

My mum & the 6 years old.

Baby Class

The 4 year old with their form teacher.

Both the individual pic are my favorite =)

photos courtesy of Jack Ung.

2009-07-03T10:11:00.000-07:00

Always feel safe there

Mirror

2009-06-25T10:03:00.000-07:00

Looking into the mirror
All I see is a LIAR standing right in front of me

Always wandering why can't I admit my feelings about everything
Why am I keeping myself from myself
And not showing the real me to the outside world
Am I that bad till I really can't show myself ?

Dance With My Father Again - Luther Vandross

2009-06-20T20:24:00.000-07:00

Back when I was a child
Before life removed all the innocence
My father would lift me high
And dance with my mother and me and then

Spin me around till I fell asleep
Then up the stairs he would carry me
And I knew for sure
I was loved

If I could get another chance
Another walk, another dance with him
I'd play a song that would never, ever end
How I'd love, love, love to dance with my father again

Ooh, ooh

When I and my mother would disagree
To get my way I would run from her to him
He'd make me laugh just to comfort me, yeah, yeah
Then finally make me do just what my mama said

Later that night when I was asleep
He left a dollar under my sheet
Never dreamed that he
Would be gone from me

If I could steal one final glance
One final step, one final dance with him
I'd play a song that would never, ever end
'Cause I'd love, love, love to dance with my father
again

Sometimes I'd listen outside her door
And I'd hear her, mama cryin' for him
I pray for her even more than me
I pray for her even more than me

I know I'm prayin' for much too much
But could You send back the only man she loved
I know You don't do it usually
But Lord, she's dyin' to dance with my father again
Every night I fall asleep
And this is all I ever dream

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY !!!
LOVE YOU DAD !

2009-06-20T08:33:00.000-07:00

I feel like crying because of a stupid
HEADACHE

PATHETIC LIFE !

2009-06-19T07:44:00.000-07:00

I'm going to continue slapping myself till I know I will keep my promise to myself
For sure, one day I will wake up from my dreams and face reality

Mistake

2009-06-18T06:30:00.000-07:00

I should have known from the beginning my decission was a mistake
How I wish everything was just a sweet dream
But now
sigh ~
What to do to make my feelings go back to normal ?

A Change of Thoughts

2009-06-12T06:05:00.000-07:00

Today is Patsy's last day in Disted. We decided to celebrate her farewell and birthday together. Knowing each other for half a year, I remember that you were one of those few people Florence introduce to me during the Orientation. You were also the first person who made fall from my chair during BBQ. And to make the world smaller, you knew my brother long before you knew me.
I just regret that I did not make an effort in making our friendship stronger. Anyway, I hope you will be back in Disted to visit us and also go to arcade together again. XD
All the best in the next college you will be and I know I will be those who will miss you.=)

The Acc class and some other SAM friends.

The evil Account Lecturer - Mrs Allen.

ex-pcghs

4+1

Legal group

Maine - Patsy - Kylie

Half a year
Many ideas gone through my mind
Once though that it won't be on my heart
But everything that will happen in 2009 especially in Disted
has touched my heart
Know that everything is worthy
Gonna miss everything once it ends
Gonna appreciate even more starting from 2nd Sem.

感想

2009-05-30T00:38:00.000-07:00

心情的起起伏伏随着岁月起落
对你们的思念从未减过

我一直都在做比较
比较后发现新的胜不过旧的
新朋友对彼此的真心充满疑惑
我看了觉得太恐怖
觉得这样的环境永远不能适应

是是非非对对错错
在此地如何表明？

上课时常常回忆以前单纯的生活

这样的生活令人太想念

对错立场明确
从未觉得疲惫累倦

朋友之间的真诚没有疑惑
如此单纯的生活回味无穷

Feelings ?

2009-05-28T06:03:00.000-07:00

College conflicts and politics do not suit me
I like the feeling of being left out in everything.

AND

I don't want any conflict to happen between me and my family members.
I just want everybody to be happy and loving.

BUT

I miss you so much.
I just wish to meet you everyday.
The feeling of you not with me makes me sad.

2009-05-23T19:19:00.000-07:00

lying to the BITCH is one thing I will enjoy once in a while.
=]

心灵相通

2009-05-22T02:50:00.000-07:00

很开心

我们可以去PREFECTS DAY了

我们期待已久的

不过可惜的是

其他的FOOOS都不能去

因为她们飞了

不在PCGHS读F6

想象看如果我们9个去那KEM一定好像SIAOLANG的

我真的很想FOOOS

明天YUIINGFOO要离开我们了

很舍不得

我们F6还有TREASURE HUNT

我很兴奋

因为超喜欢这样的活动

新年的时候我们本来也有参加的

想到这一切的爽

可FOOOS却不能在一起

真的很伤心

想当年我们的PREFECTS KEM不管1天还是3天

我们都可以很SIAO

一边喊一边叫一边笑

我很想念那时的我们

真的很想念

如今大家飞了

我和MINGFOO可能读到一半要走了

还不肯定

如果是这样

就剩PANGFOO和WENFOO

我多么希望FOOOS可以在一起

当我知道我们可以去PREFECTS DAY的时候

我第一就想到要帮FOOOS报名了

全部的FOOOS不在一起

难免会觉得空虚

没有了你们的欢笑声

没有了你们的无聊声

没有了你们的喊叫声

没有了大家互相照顾的时候

没有了大家一起拥抱的时候

没有了大家一起哭泣的时候

没有了大家互相支持的时候

等等..........

太多了

真的

我们的回忆太多了

有很多的感受

却说不出口

我想大家应该很了解彼此在想什么吧

毕竟我们心灵相通的

唯有默默的祝福每个FOO

愿大家过得开心快乐

FOOOOS

我突然很想你们

我突然

很想念我们在一起的时候

很想念我们一起哭笑不得的时候

很想念我们一起去KL的时候

很想念我们在SUNWAY LAGOON的时候

很想念我们在REDBOX的时候

很想念我们一起看戏的时候

很想念我们讲话大大声的时候

很想念我们做SIASUI事的时候

很想念我们笑人家的时候

很想念我们一起讲人家的时候

很想念我们一起合作的时候

很想念我们一起去HOTEL的时候

很想念我们一起打球的时候

很想念我们的每一个聚会

ETC..........

太多了

我爱你们!!!!!!!!!!

Copied from pei's blog
I love this entry
because it is what i feel
They understand me best
I miss them too much
Missing everybody day and night
Always looking forward to our gathering
But it seems too far away to even plan
I thought the feeling was over
but now I know it never once left my side
It will be with me forever
Because it is the feeling and friendship
that i wanted in the past
and I promise also the present and future.
我爱你们